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Dec. 27th, 2006 | 08:45 am

well thats it. all the joy and excitement of december is almost over. it was weird this year. didnt even seem like it was supposed to be holiday time yet. all in all i had a grand time.

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Dec. 23rd, 2006 | 09:15 am

we ended up in south carolina thursday night. strip spin the bottle is the way to go.

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Dec. 20th, 2006 | 10:19 pm

i fucked up so so so bad.
and then poof. it was all okay.
i almost hyperventilated and had a heart attack. [but not really].
thank goodness my friends were there to help me.
even though they really didnt say anything.
it still helped.
and then poof. everythings fine.

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Dec. 20th, 2006 | 09:04 am

last night i just got incredibly sad for the longest time. and i listened to the same cd about 20 times. i just sat on my bed and thought about all this stuff. sad stuff. good stuff. whatever just random stuff.
i literally just sat there and stared at the floor while my mind raced with all these random memories i guess you could say. it was weird because i never remember anything. ever. i guess i was analyzing my entire life. like why certain things have happened, and how things could have been different blah blah blah. good thing my life is short or i would have been there all night. i mean, i was there all night because its my bed.
i only went out one time this weekend. my poor car finally got fixed. and i got speakers for hannukah.
i also got a bongo. wooo.

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Dec. 16th, 2006 | 05:47 pm

zenith. SUCH IS LIFE. i fucking love my friends. fo trill. such is life man, such is life.

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Dec. 11th, 2006 | 04:20 am

i dont understand some people. but you know what? fuck them.
it is alllllllll good. thats right. all. everything. every little bit of it is all fucking good.
i love life. i love everything. my other two best friends are coming home this week.
i plan on spending a lot of fucking time with them.
and even more time in the park. yessir.
but seriously, why is the human race so fucking confusing? why?
last night, so fun.
this much fun...

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i need more nights like that. living the good fucking life.
i am beyond rambling right now. but like i said. its all fucking good.
literally the only one problem i can even think of right now is not even that big of a problem. hell yes. no problems. the good shit will do that.
"dont need no drama", right mary j. blige?
life. amen.
you know what, every day i clean my room. and it always gets messy. i dont understand.
ha. what in the world.
life. i love you. and your entirety.

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Dec. 1st, 2006 | 02:09 pm

so i kind of feel weird typing in this thing i guess. i used to do it all the time back in the day but anyways that was random.
not going to work today. probably will get fired. not really, but i dont even care.
SAT tomorrow.
sara palmer has fell of the face of this earth. i cant find her anywhere and i really want to. where are you child? or maybe its me.

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Nov. 27th, 2006 | 01:42 pm

its already holiday time. its so weird. it doesnt seem right. there are christmas wreaths up everywhere and stuff. are you sure its really almost december? i am not so sure.

i had an almost amazing time in new york. my perspective on life has not changed. this is good. i am, for the most part, comfortable. even if being comfortable means being totally confused.

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Nov. 14th, 2006 | 03:04 am

things are sort of getting easier. okay, not so much easier but better. a little bit. i talked to sara last night for a long time and im so glad. its weird because we are sort of going through i guess you could call it the same sort of stuff in a way so its good to talk to someone else about who actually gets it. that was a very long sentence.
i think i still have that whole whatever fuck everything demeanor going on. but i cant seem to change it. i want to so bad. i cant find anything that is helping or making it go away. i dont know what is missing i guess. but i hope i find it soon.

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Nov. 9th, 2006 | 04:04 am

there comes a point in life when the only thing you feel like you can say is fuck everything.
i think your supposed to come to this point when your 50 and have a mid-life crisis. not when your 18. i dont know why. its so weird. everything is so...strange.

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